I'm back and I'm better. *Bryson Tiller voice*
It's been a full two years since I've last published a blog online. Part of the reason why I stopped was the vulnerability aspect — once you share your thoughts, that's it, they're out there and there's no going back (especially in this blackhole of an internet). Being vulnerable and putting yourself out there is scary, and I wasn't sure I was ready for all of that.
In the two years this blog has been stagnant I've lost a family member, moved cities, got a new job, signed a lease on my own apartment, finally visited Jamaica (check out some of my favorite pictures from the trip below!), and ended a long relationship.
Life. I've been living life and experiencing all of it's beauty, sadness, and surprises.
When I first started my blog it was my outlet to get things off my chest and share content I thought might be relatable. However, I started to feel weird when my dad would call me and tell me himself, and even some of his friends, were really liking my blog. My initial thoughts were: why is my dad reading this? How do his friends know about it? I'm not sure I want him or his friends reading my every post. Of course, I love him, but I started to feel like I had to censor myself and my thoughts to appeal to others. I stopped thinking of authentic content and instead of likable content.
BUT, NOW IT'S 2018, and whether you like me is not is not my concern. I can only be me — if you like it, I'm glad to have you here, and if you don't, that's cool too.
I'm not much of a person for new year's resolutions, but I do think there is significance in new beginnings and the opportunity for fresh starts. I want this blog to be a place where I can feel comfortable being authentically myself, and where others who might be going through similar things can relate.
That being said, this year, I'm focusing on health (mental and physical), wellness, self-care, self-love, and growth. I have a feeling this is going to be a great year for me and I'd be happy to have you join me on this journey.